Published on Jul 21, 2021
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15 Months is a short film sharing my experience and feelings over the last year and a half.

Original Music by: Ursine Vulpine

  • Milam Robinson

    Milam Robinson

    4 hours ago

    Stay strong push through jack
    you got this

  • Cassia Berry

    Cassia Berry

    5 hours ago

    You've captured the eyes of hundreds of people. You hear their criticism and see their comments... But I'm afraid that you've forgotten. You may have captured the eyes of hundreds, but you've also captured the hearts of thousands. You bring joy to so many people 💕💕 you've brought life back to others. You are an amazing YouTuber, but a better human being. 🥺🥺 stay strong

  • Gabriel Barbosa

    Gabriel Barbosa

    13 hours ago

    This is incredibly done I’m amazed we are all here for you sean

  • US GameWolf

    US GameWolf

    14 hours ago

    this is the awakening of the world bro, holy shit what an amazing film. i hope everything is going good and we will always support your funny arse. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Chloi Love

    Chloi Love

    16 hours ago

    Sean, I am one of your biggest fans, I've been watching your videos since 2010, your are my idol, my friend, I hope you understand that we are always here for you. 💖💖🥺🥺

  • Mystical Manic 🧙‍♂️

    Mystical Manic 🧙‍♂️

    20 hours ago

    I just subscribed today and want to say I understand 💙

  • ghostxwolfx


    21 hour ago

    hey jack feature this comment in a video you helped me I have been suffering from depression for years and helped me get through it even when I thought no one cared and I thank you so much but I wish I could help you I really do everyone sub to jack

  • ghostxwolfx


    21 hour ago

    I cant help you jack I wish I could

  • Harry Roche

    Harry Roche

    21 hour ago

    One thing I like about this is how, the passage of time is working with it.
    Forgive me if I'm misreading it creatively, but I get the feeling it was done in such a way that to me conveyed a sense of blurring, that every day it's the same thing, and it all just blends together, creating this mess of lost time, of moments that are just, conglomerates of days and days, and I think it's kind of clever. The ticking clock which comes in and out, it fades away and returns, as though we just aren't paying attention to the time as it passes.
    (I know I'm late but I wasn't getting any notifications)

  • ghostxwolfx


    21 hour ago

    omg jack I can relate to you

  • _RED4CTED_


    23 hours ago

    As someone with asthma, just hearing you wheezing started triggering mine. The cinematography in this video is absolutely killer! And so is the audio production, how the music built to a crescendo right before you took your inhaler at 5:10 and slowly came back down after you did so says alot without saying any words. Your first Cinematic video "CHASE" gave me inspiration to do my documentary on 2020. We love you Sean, that might be a bit weird to say for some random person on the internet. But we do. Keep being you boss.

  • kyezygaming


    Day ago

    This mans helped me get through my mum and dads divorse with his videos and i think now we all need to return the favour

  • Lillian


    Day ago

    I didn't want to feel this crushing, existential pain this morning, but this is BEAUTIFUL. Well done man, thanks for being brave enough to speak out about all these struggles

  • Elle Amber

    Elle Amber

    Day ago

    This is such a beautiful representation of the struggles and hardships Sean has faced. Also incredibly well made and triggered an intense reaction from seeing it and I ended up crying. Sean you are incredible in everything you do and you are a very strong person for not only getting through the hardships but also sharing this video about them. Love and support you always :)



    Day ago

    I’m sorry. But I don’t understand the video.
    Am I dumb?

  • Twisted


    Day ago

    Omgosh... I did not expect this to be so thought provoking. The build up was really well done towards the end, the breathing, the intensity, holding your chest, the countless eyes, getting anxiety even in the middle of a pleasant conversation.. and the music ontop of that intense final shot/stare of the camera... WOW!!!!!.... the soundwork through this really helped tell the story. But that shot of you walking out of that basement into nature and sunshine touched me deep... the sheer sense of relief, release, letting go.. I love nature (and I know you do too 😉), nothing made me feel happier than to see you embrace it... For all you've done for so many over the years- including myself, who rewatches certain series of yours when I have to go back to hospital as it keeps me smiling and distracted.. You deserve to make this decision for YOURSELF. When I saw you in Pewds vid the other day and he said something about not uploading and you were like "why bother", I got it. But after watching this and struggling terribly for years with crippling anxiety myself, I REALLY got it.... this video truly is a piece of art, a bearing of your soul. Please, I hope you're happier, or at least getting there, getting outside and enjoying some peace..♡ I often sit in my front yard, just my cats lounging in the sun, skinks crawling out to sunbathe on the log next to me, all the small creatures and insects that crawl around in the grass or buzz around the flowers.. I just sit there in silence and soak in it. Nothing makes me feel more at peace. I want you to find your peace too, you deserve it.
    Thank you for everything.
    P.S thanks for the reminder to take my meds.. I'm on sertraline too 😅 Literally grabbed them as I watched and it made me feel even more of a connection in a weird way heh..

  • dark Noob

    dark Noob

    2 days ago

    i just understand right off the bat jack. i feel like this everyday don't worry bud you will be ok from Co. Tipperary 🍀👍 new sub

  • Mica


    2 days ago

    Your so brave for sharing this, even though you know you will get some hate, stay strong man. We believe in you

  • moxxie


    2 days ago

    Dis one seen 8:10 of the remote i have that remote its right now next to me

  • moxxie


    2 days ago

    Dis makes me fell like jack hase some bad virus and now he slowly diying

    • moxxie


      2 days ago

      And it makes me fell bad and sad how it was done

  • BridledandBare


    2 days ago

    I felt so much of this video. I just want to say thank you. So much. Please take care of your mental health as well as your respiratory problems. My daughter and I love you and Evelien so much and you look like you adore each other. Thank you for working as hard as you do to bring so much happiness to others. I hope one day all of us can do the same for you. 💚

  • Fritz


    3 days ago


  • Michael Burnheart

    Michael Burnheart

    3 days ago

    Come on

  • Justin Morris

    Justin Morris

    3 days ago

    I hated it. And I loved it. Too real, and perfect. You've captured the spirit of 2019-2021. I enjoy your light-hearted content, but this is something different, and great. Great shooting, great editing. Great work. You've got more than YouTube to look forward to with content like this, but I hope you still stick around and keep doing what has put you in a position to make great content like this. Balance.

  • Emotional Context

    Emotional Context

    4 days ago

    I just saying these, cause you are need to hear it, I'm telling this with %100 empathy. I think you are just stop making videos at this point, and get retirement, enjoy the life fullest without pressure. because health is more ımportant, and your are just destroying yourself doing something that you are not happy bout that. you should take care yourself instead working on the youtube, if you are forcing yourself to doing that still, don't do that, cause you are deserved better than this. this is not bout me, all the fans you had, but yourself

  • Wingman46


    4 days ago

    not to get off topic, but jacks film sense is phenomenal he should do film!

  • Zane Gamer

    Zane Gamer

    4 days ago


  • Nicky The Demon

    Nicky The Demon

    4 days ago

    I hope u are doin well currently!!!!
    This got me so worried about ya Lad
    I'm here if ya need to vent. Just leave a comment on my channal if u ever feel bad in any way. I will answer as quick as I can
    Love ya From Nicky in sweden♥️
    (and yeah I can 1000% say that I relate to this)

  • Bystander


    4 days ago

    Sean: *kalm* *depressed boy*

  • EliD70


    5 days ago

    Jack has asthma?! What a nerd!
    this is a joke it's a reference to an old video where there was an asthma infomercial jack reacted to

  • Zachary Adams

    Zachary Adams

    5 days ago

    Wow this shit was deep

  • Coco cola espuma

    Coco cola espuma

    5 days ago

    This is good u should be in a movie

  • Haylon Hamilton

    Haylon Hamilton

    5 days ago

    What kind of clock is that i want one?

  • Jeb


    5 days ago

    love you Jack

  • QuietBiscuit


    5 days ago

    Sean my man you need a spacer for your inhaler. It makes a big difference especially if you're also panicking when trying to take it.

  • Lindsay Oxley

    Lindsay Oxley

    5 days ago

    Well he clearly took A LOT of inspiration from Bo Burnham's 'Inside'. Not saying it isn't good to take inspiration from other things for your content of course and it is a good short film, but it'd be nice if he could credit his inspiration.

  • Avery Rose Cloud

    Avery Rose Cloud

    6 days ago

    This was incredible. I absolutely loved this so much. I really hope Sean pursues some hobby in directing or editing, because this was so good!



    6 days ago

    some of these sections remind me of mamamax and im not sure if i want to be absolutely scared shitless or really impressed

  • SighMc


    6 days ago

    The way my heart hurts when I think about how we can't do nearly as well to help you like you help us. Your message went nowhere unheard. We love you, Sean.

  • Approblade


    6 days ago

    U good bro?
    Edit: Obviously not. I hope you can get through this, I wish there was something we could do to help.

  • mathew law

    mathew law

    6 days ago

    wow this is intresting

  • Xhesian Mulgeci

    Xhesian Mulgeci

    6 days ago

    I hope you are doing well and you need to be strong


  • Yolandi Voysey

    Yolandi Voysey

    6 days ago

    This hit home for me Sean

  • human blibord

    human blibord

    6 days ago

    Why are there so many dislikes

  • Abacoot


    6 days ago

    Hope you are well Sean. I'm blessed my mindset has been extremely positive lately but I can relate to feeling alone sometimes. Seeing you lay back in your chair emotionless watching your own video hits hard. I use to watch old unleashed gaming videos of mine when I younger and happier for motivation 🔥

  • Stephanie Moelker

    Stephanie Moelker

    6 days ago

    What a raw and really powerful message you have conveyed here! Very well done! Always in my families thoughts!

  • Falensiana


    6 days ago

    The movie is incredible Sean, you did an amazing job with it, amazing portrayal of how you feel. You're always valid, I hope you find some source to help you as much as you've helped others, if not more

  • hani kake

    hani kake

    7 days ago

    I love this kind of work! It’s refreshing, especially coming from someone I’ve been watching for years now. Thank you for sharing such an intimate piece with us, I can’t wait to see what else you’ll make.

  • JulesOnly


    7 days ago

    Honestly every emotion is conveyed perfectly, you can feel every breath, every look, every thought. This is incredibly!

  • kingiking110


    7 days ago

    I think I understand what this short film is trying to say and show. Feelings of isolation, sickness and nervousness. But unfortunately, for me it inspired non of those feelings. It's maybe because the entire time the thought that was swirling in my head was : " look at this rich famous young dude living in his dream house, doing his dream job, and the only real inconvenience in his life is some sort of respiratory disease that is not seriously debilitating or life threatening, and he is making a film about himself while millions of people are living much harder lives and are either silent or ignored!". I don't mean to be mean or hateful, and I hope you get well as soon as possible, but I can't deny that this film made me very bored (because of all those cliche shots and sounds) and also a bit annoyed (because of those thoughts I mentioned). Anyways, just an honest comment! Thank you for your cool gaming videos though! :)

  • Alexander


    7 days ago

    I am glad you have had Evelyn in these times. I have always only had myself, I know what the deepest depths of loneliness is like. I wish I didn't.
    But you are not alone Sean, you have a community, a family, and a beautiful strong lady by your side. Ready to support you at any time.
    you have been a major part in my life since a young age, and I appreciate you a lot. I am sorry you have had to suffer as much as you have, but that is part of life apparently.
    Much love Sean, I am exciting for you to make content when you are ready for that!

  • Raffa Shafi

    Raffa Shafi

    7 days ago

    Holy moly, I know Jack loves a good audio which is why I kinda expected it but dear God it's a blessing to my ears that stimulate every inch of my brain. Not to mention the cinematography as well as the foretelling of a story without much need of words... You really outdid yourself and thank you for making something so beautiful

  • ElephantHut


    8 days ago

    I'm sorry you're going through that Sean. Yeah we enjoy your content, and it's sad some others tear it down, but your mental health is the most important out of all of this. You're a person too. Take care of yourself buddy. You've got your own life to take care of.

  • David Davenport

    David Davenport

    8 days ago

    We love you Jack. I am glad you exist and I wish I could hug you right now so much. Its easy to just watch your content and see the happy face you put up, without seeing the real person for who they are. I love you jack. If you ever need any of us, we will be there.

  • Treeholo


    8 days ago

    The cinematography in this is stunning, great work!

  • Evanopili Smith Jones

    Evanopili Smith Jones

    8 days ago

    it must be really tough...I don't know how he does it... The pain of been ginger...

  • yeahboi#81


    8 days ago

    After watching this for the forth time one thing sticks with me..... when your past self is reading the comment of a fan your present self is total polar opposite in mood, does this mean you dont feel as much joy in making your content anymore? Just wondering that all, because what you are doing for so many people out there is amazing and as long as your channel is out there it will continue to do positive things for this planet. So take care of yourself and keep a positive mentle attitude on and off camera .🤗

  • Caitlynn Aguilar

    Caitlynn Aguilar

    9 days ago

    As a person who's asthma got worse after covid, I feel this one.

  • sweater


    9 days ago

    soon in theaters

  • Sayali Dalvi

    Sayali Dalvi

    9 days ago

    THEY’VE STOPPED. The trolls have finally stopped. This is great, Sean.

  • Harvey Matthew Serrano

    Harvey Matthew Serrano

    9 days ago

    wait so hes not an introvert too?

  • Steet


    9 days ago

    Sean, to get my peace of mind i would like to say that we all care about you and its fine to feel like this, sometimes its good to take a brake from it all. You feel like people are judging you and watching your every move and decision waiting to cancel you because of how fucked up social media is and how nasty people are to cancel someone so big over something so small. Live your life how you want to without worrying on what we think, we all love you for who you are weather the real you is the you on camera or not. You are probably sitting there now thinking that none of us know who you are because the real you isnt the you who is on camera or it might well be the real you. But either way, we all love you. They say a childs personality and character is built by the people around them and by roll models, now personally you sean, and felix have played a huge part in my childhood and shaping my character and my take on life. Youve helpled me a lot growing up going through many stages of my life like the loss of family and losing friends, im happy to say youre a friend ive had for 7 years even though you dont know who i am at all, and have helped me by simply being on my screen making me laugh. We all love you sean, so whatever youre going through please keep your head up and shoulders back and keep telling yourself youre a good person who has helped people and made peoples childhoods great. Sorry if there is any grammar mistakes or the English is bad, im bad and writing.

  • Steet


    9 days ago

    I noticed youre on sertraline 5:36 now i know youve probably had a fucked up time of it.

  • xd rashiq

    xd rashiq

    9 days ago

    me watching this video makes so sad cuz i feel like youtube is ganna die man i love you jack

  • Explosive_Gamer


    9 days ago

    The fact that I can’t help jack, or at least help him makes me feel so horrible and selfish. His face looks so drained and emotionless in this video.. And it kills me knowing I can’t help him the same way he has helped me by making these videos.. I know this video was posted a month ago, but that doesn’t mean this isint still going on. I hope that you come back from this better than ever. It honestly hurts me to see someone as happy and caring as sèan being sad or depressed. I care so much about this man even though he doesn’t even know me. The amount of things I would do just to make him happy. I look up to him so much, and he is like the older brother or father I never had. He has raised me better than my real father just by making videos on the internet. I hope to meet you someday jack. Do well, and remember we love you :) ❤️❤️

  • MrC4T


    9 days ago

    now i feel so bad

  • Giannis Tsiamouras

    Giannis Tsiamouras

    10 days ago

    It seems so awfully hard for you, Sean! I hope you are better now! If not, you should take a brake. You look like it would be best for you

  • Drawing is Life

    Drawing is Life

    10 days ago

    Honestly I can’t believe that this is what we all go through during this and we’ve all had a loss at some point in our lives and we need breaks a lot of the time. Some us go through more sh*t than others. Of course you got us through a lot of stuff in our lives and you helped me through a lot of my abuse in my younger teenage years I have been watching you for so long that I just feel that this channel is my family and seeing you smile and laugh makes us all forget that you have your own issues. We be love you Sean!!

  • Isabella Myhre

    Isabella Myhre

    10 days ago

    I left the community for a while, I guess I grew out of the content Sean was making at the time but today I was feeling a bit nostalgic so I came to check up on him, see how he's doing see how he's grown and... I'm floored this was amazing! I really feel you here and its brought me to tears. This video looks how my depression feels and its been a long ways, not only for me but also it seems for you. I think I'll be sticking around, sorry to add another camera to the crowd but I would love to see more of this, more personal content. In the words of Steve (from Blue's Clues), "After all these years, I never forgot you...ever. And I'm super glad we're still friends. Thanks for listening. You look great by the way, whatever your doing is working"

  • Chiara Antonj

    Chiara Antonj

    10 days ago

    WOW. I'm speechless.
    I really hope to see more films/content like this in the future.
    This is just *pure talent* I felt all these emotions without hearing a single word. WOW.
    *Thank you so so much Sean for sharing your art for free with all of us!*

  • J D

    J D

    10 days ago

    Directed, filmed AND edited....
    Terrific achievement and contribution.
    Can't possibly comment on the whole experience, but the tyranny of the camera lens at the end was really something. Thank you for a window into your world. I hope compassion finds your heart.

  • Tcg2


    10 days ago

    Hey Jack this might be a month old video but you should take a break because I feel sad watching how you felt for a year it really reminds me of how demanding people are to see content on youtube so Jack take a break collect your thoughts because this is sad😥

  • Mario Alberto

    Mario Alberto

    10 days ago

    I cried, I identified myself in the video since the beginning of the "quarantine", even before that. Obviously different problems, person, country, etc., but the power, the thing the video transmits... Man...

  • Ev


    10 days ago

    would have been cool if it were 15 minutes exactly

  • Deucey Dee

    Deucey Dee

    10 days ago

    This could, would, and should dominate at Sundance, that's all I'm gonna say

  • Sonia Pilas

    Sonia Pilas

    10 days ago

    Take all the time you need Sean. We're all so proud of you and hope everything is better soon. Stray strong! You were here for us and we will be here for you too

  • Ethan Ziggy D. Pineda

    Ethan Ziggy D. Pineda

    10 days ago

    this make's me understand that being popular isnt all that good it comes with is downsides man sean has been really kicking wish i was here when this was released

  • 《Pawz Planet》

    《Pawz Planet》

    10 days ago

    Omg this video is so powerful...😳❤️



    10 days ago


  • Cyrilou


    10 days ago

    Wow . You have the skills to make movies. Great work there. The emotion is very well represented. As a viewer I felt like I was in your shoes. I'm happy for you it's ending in a brighter note. Welcome back. Missed you.

  • Matty


    10 days ago

    Shit... this was well put together. Conveyed every emotion clearly.

  • George Darca

    George Darca

    10 days ago

    Let's take a second to hunt down the people who disliked

  • close the Chanel

    close the Chanel

    10 days ago


  • AntiSepticEye


    11 days ago

    I hope you didn’t go though pain to make this video with the coughing

  • Mahelania RektBB

    Mahelania RektBB

    11 days ago

    So, he went outside and touched some grass.

    • Mahelania RektBB

      Mahelania RektBB

      9 days ago

      @Keerthana B I love this guy and wasn't making fun of him. Lately in his videos, he's been telling us to go outside and touch some grass and I thought it was nice that he finally left his home, went outside and felt free in nature in the video. I'm a "if you have nothing nice to say, say nothing" kind of person, and would never leave a shitty comment on someone's videos, especially not on someone whose videos who have kept me from letting dark times get the best of me. It was literally a reference to his last couple meme times. As someone who has recently lost a loved one and has debilitating mental and physical health issues, it can be hard seeing everyone wanting you to be better when it doesn't work that way. This is why depressed people often turn to humor. Granted, I didn't expect him to read my comment since the video was from a while ago, but thought he'd get a chuckle out of the call-back humor. Perhaps you should think before you comment. Or just watch his latest videos and do some critical thinking. I get that there are terrible people who get their jollies off of being mean but nothing I said is mean. Go comment on that person whose name is very mean towards his dad (won't repost the name because it's terrible).

    • Keerthana B

      Keerthana B

      10 days ago

      Do u even know how much he has gone through? He lost his dad and was made fun by some jerks about the death. It's not easy being a popular content creator. Think before you comment

  • Master Waffler

    Master Waffler

    11 days ago

    I can’t believe how much pressure you just have to go through it’s awful I was honestly in tears watching this it was so gripping and the message that was put across was really important I think I’ve never seen a video like this on YouTube but your so strong for being able to make this video and keeping on going I think I speak for every fan when I say I’m so proud of you and I hope things are better now lots of love a fan 💚

  • Artur Niit

    Artur Niit

    11 days ago

    im not alone

  • D.E.V.R.O.N


    11 days ago

    That was awsome. i loved all the shots and the music, it was so cool watching it

  • stariinix😝


    11 days ago

    Sean the person to be in a movie🤩

  • Benkay V Falsifier

    Benkay V Falsifier

    11 days ago

    10:50 Honestly, I was expecting that image on the lens to blink like it was an eye.

  • Cheri_mii


    11 days ago

    Seán’s just made a short film about his asthma

  • Acris


    12 days ago

    Quarantine can really lead a person to darkness the only thing can save us is the help of nature

  • Falcon


    12 days ago

    also really amazing stuff

  • Falcon


    12 days ago

    camera be like come back here boah

  • Lmno


    12 days ago

    it feel bad when the realisation of someone you have looked up to for years has been going through a lot of tough shit behind the cameras, and you cant help them. Hope you get better soon, Sean

  • Luffy San

    Luffy San

    12 days ago

    depression is killing me I can't even do anything I'm always sitting in my room alone ugh that sucks

  • Arjang


    12 days ago

    life is full of emotions we will feel all of them

  • Myxolydian


    12 days ago

    You will never see this.
    But this is quite literally my favorite video you have ever made. I didn’t even know you had asthma after all these years.
    Keep on going, keep doing what you want- but besides your normal content, I hope to see more art like this as well

  • Fragile*Paradox


    12 days ago

    You’re just trying to be bo burnham and its not working

    • Sayali Dalvi

      Sayali Dalvi

      9 days ago

      Huh, Fragile*Paradox. Fragility is very prominent here. Inspiration isn’t stealing/copying.

  • FandomTOBY


    12 days ago

    While I'm not a full time youtuber and don't have a demanding following on any platform in the internet whatsoever, I can fully relate to the lonliness, health problems and every day seeming to be the same which is shown in this short film. It is something what a lot of people struggle with. And it is important that we as an audience *don't* forget that Sean is very obviously just like us.